The rain does have some sort of impact to my mood, straightly. As you can guess that i'm not in a good mood today you probably already knew that today rains for quite long. Morning til 3 PM (yep, no typo) when i wake up.
The day goes blankly as usually past here but then when i decided to chat at night some people bitch up. We'll begin with a moronic guy who sweetly wished me a late Happy New Year. I appreciate that, really, but when he begins to talk stupidly about valentine's day (which is still a month and 4 days away) i get bugged (oh and i'm not into that stupid over-commercialized occasion). Telling me how he couldn't sleep past midnight after new year just make me really want to punch his puny pug face. Shut up. If you want to go to bed go immediately. I do need to know those UNIMPORTANT new facts about you. Did i ask??? Clearly not.
FYI, I changed MSN nickname few minutes ago to: "Give Me Death Note, I Got Lots Of Names To Write Down..." and that moronic guy still IM -ing me by asking (half-intended as a joke perhaps) for a live note for he wants to revive a lot of people. If he did intend this to be a joke, it suck badly. If he doesn't joke then, Boo-hoo-hoo I don't give shit whether you are a new reborn nice saint guy now... but just because none of your roommates gives a fuck about that doesn't mean that i would. You are as pathetic as your superficial girlfriend. Period.


And about this blog...
The fact that no one post a comment doesn't bother me. It did before.
I thought that when you create a blog to share feelings and events with your CLOSEST friends you'll be happy if ONE of your closest friends who is the reason why you created this blog at the 1st place REPLIED. Does it hurt your super busy schedule just to write a tiny comment like: "LOL, That sux." or "hope you are doing fine." or whatever just for few seconds?
I decided not to confront (uhh scary choice of words) her but let it be written here.
If she STILLS check it, thanks God. If she checks this and pissed, let it be. Because YOU know what (YOU know WHO YOU are.) I'm TIRED.
My zodiac sign is the one which you may think as being self-centered but as far as i remember i RARELY am/was self-centered whenever we met to talk. Although you might want to say i was or talking too much but i would always remember to give time for you (and people) to spill your beans. It seems I always listen to you and lately it's getting worse. You always talked and i would be silent. Not just in real live but also online. We all got our own problems in life and we need others' support so i just want to say i NEED mine too. Now, if you would be so kind to stop typing your long useless rant and listen to your friend's trouble for awhile, If you still care...?
If you would just admit that I will forgive your slightly-over-the-edge selfishness. I still care about you though i'm upset and angry. I'm not ignorant lately, i'm testing you. You are still one of my closest friend and i don't wish to change that.
You know what will happen if I talk to you straightly about this, we will debate about it and big chance ended up in a fight. Not a good thing when we are one sea away from each other...

*sighs*

What a day... Maybe there's too much evil whispers in my room. I would love to take a walk for awhile if it hasn't rain again...

With a proper apologies to He-Who-Have-Been-So-Kindly-To-Post-The-1st-Comment,
Sorry & thanks a lot for it :)

So long,
D

Ha, Thursday.

Today is fine.
They did fogging at the place where i live so that explains the many dead and half-dead cockroaches (*faints*) scattered near the bins this morning.

To anyone who is interested, the weather is fine today. It rains, stops for awhile, rains again with thunders, followed by some girlish scream from someone under my apartment, and now a breezy cloudy night.

But anyways, screw the weather...
I'm in my battle again. My battle against final term projects and I just have one simple hope, surviving these tough days. I'm amazed how i still make myself an excuse to stay in front of my laptop for a while, sipping my beer (need something warm tonight :( ), and typing my journal, whilst tomorrow i got a morning class.

......

Damn, i start to feel really guilty now.
Need to get my lazy ass to continue the projects since all i do today is browsing clothing lines, imagining the happy end of term shopping. Haha... that is what keeps me alive in these dreadful time.
Buh... projects.

Wish me good luck!
D

1st Entry

Wow, never thought will ever make a real LJ account...
For the sake of keeping in touch with my mates back home here it is.

I was hoping to write something happy/cheerful for my 1st entry but damn... what can i say? Faking a journal (facts) is going against my nature so yeah, SCREW this Monday.

The morning was fine, supposed to have presentation today but I found out later on that it was just for some unlucky selected students. Wasn't in it. Some of my classmates were like.. shit today :) superb. Remember the feeling of wanting to punch some jerks for being cold bitches to you for unknown reasons? *Sigh* Maybe, next time i should just sharpen my pencils and stab 'em right at their eyes.

Adding spice to the day is the rain. What is it with this place that it's always raining on Monday??? And it's not just tiny light rain. It rain so heavy that i almost got my laptop wet. Making things worse is when some cars drive carelessly and sprayed waters all over the people waiting at the bus stop. All of them curse, including me of course, and though i'm better than the people besides me (they got splashed all over the face while i hide behind my bag) my clothes are very visibly wet.

So... There i was, my trousers is cold, my shirt is chilling, my bag is wet, my body is dirty, my shoes is damp, sitting in the bus on my 1-hour way home... Oh did i mention PMS?
Yeah, I'm in my Prehistoric Monster Syndrome. Day Two, Women, you all should understand how it feels :).
Thank you.
Let me continue,
So sitting in the bus, i had so much on my mind but i feel jammed... As in i'm not sure what or how to feel. Should i be sad? But they were just my acquaintances. Should i be angry? Who to blame? Them? God? Rain? PMS? Should i be a saint and forgive those who trespass against me? Whoa, not that easy...
Well, I dunno. But 1 thing, this is not the usual environment. Today is just weird, so blue and unfamiliar.
Even if i'm in a room that i've been living in for 1 year it doesn't even feel like it.
Even if i'm chatting with my mate i don't feel the usual secure and comfort.
What the hell is with today??

I got another thing to worried, FINAL TERM EXAMS
God bless me, may tomorrow everything is back to normal.

Amen

Need a sleep now.


and

Holy ca-molly, it rains again outside....
But i wont complain much about rain at night. I kinda like it.


Nite,
D